I wanted to send you a quick note to thank you for lunch yesterday. I so enjoyed our time together but it was too short. The baby is beautiful, you both seem so bonded and happy together. I wish I did not have to run off so fast and cut our day short. Such is life. I promise that I'll come by next Saturday leaving my day open so we can spend more time. It's been too long since we could just laugh together like that. See you next week.
I never wrote that note because I did not really know Vickie Lynn Hogan. I only knew her public image as Anna Nicole Smith. An image which was constantly fleeting. I have thought how it would feel to have missed out on quality time with my own loved ones because of the pace of my hurried life. Not allowing myself to linger and be present in the moment. Only to realizie that it was to be my last time. The loss of Anna Nicole left room for me to take pause and realize that next Saturday may never come. The opportunity to spend time together is today in this moment. No moment beyond this one is promised to me in time. It's this moment that is most precious and within my grasp.
"Time, like a hummingbird moves so quickly. For a moment it appears to be holding perfectly still, though it's motion has never paused. Suddenly it's gone and I long again for it's return." - Ray Basile
I feel sadness as I connect with the loss of such an illuminating young lady. I found Anna Nicole entertaining and certainly fun to watch. She was a bright and shining star indeed. To someone, to many and especially to one little girl I am confident that she was precious and adored. Not a celebrity, a model or a juicy story in a gossip column, but just a girl in the world. Mom, daughter, bride-to-be and closest friend. Precious and adored.
“She fought against so many obstacles – poverty. Teen pregnancy. A bad home life.” And of course, ridicule. “But she persisted, where others would have shrunk away out of humiliation and shame.” It might have made her look pathetic. But it also made it exceedingly hard to look away. - Jocelyn Noveck- Associated Press
Vickie Lynn Hogan - Anna Nicole Smith (November 28, 1967 – February 8, 2007)